Very sorry to hear this.
I wish you all the best in your recovery.
I guess I'm a little different. I have always been a drinker, but usually just on the weekend. I'm never going to give up my wine and beer, but I don't drink hard liquor. My problem, especially since my beloved Mom passed away, is I have gone from drinking on Friday, Saturday, and Sundays, which I've done since I was 19, to drinking every day.
Look, I think this numbness, and feeling lost and depressed, and wondering if it's even worth getting up and trying to be productive, will pass eventually.
Some of you have told me that you've lost many family members, and that you're coping fine. I find that encouraging, and hope I can get to that point soon.