That he had no real fear of Hell, but Eternal Separation from God based on something he could have avoidedand then wilingly did scared him badly.
I could be wrong, but that is my memory.
Note that no sarcastricks were used in the posting of this response.
Elmer Fudd would say
"Be vewy vewy Carefull!"
Edited to add:
Apologies - I found your first response on page 2 after posting this.
My advice (which you don't need) would be to go buy a good book (Larry McMurtry works) and give it your full attention for twoweeks. Going to your shop for two weeks and making some sawdust would work, too.