Let it go, man. Move on. You hang onto shite like that and it will drive you crazy. Get back out there. Rearview mirror, man. Truck on.
Oh yeah, also…flowers was a bad move with the new chick. Do something else…anything else...to woo her back. But you wait until you get back in there and YOU get paid…and then you send her flowers. Otherwise you very well may have just wasted $80 for nothing. If you wait, then she has a reason to get back with you the next time you eff up. And yeah, there will be a next time. Always is.
Once i get past this crap. I'll be fine